My roommate and friend are getting married!!

I will admit that I was definitely one of the critical ones.  I did, in fact, think right after I said, "Oh my gosh!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!", that it might be a bit soon.  After all, they had only been dating like... what? 3 or 4 months? 

Well, I just found their wedding blog and I read it and oh my goodness.  I am so happy for them.  They wrote a condensed version of the events that happened.  I have a ridiculously romantic heart and I LOVE their little story.  

 sigh.

 I want some of that water, Mom.

http://scotthodgeswedding.weebly.com/

 

Natural Beauty? I don't think so.

      Despite what some people say, I think it is perfectly ok to want to look good and get yourself composed and cleaned up. Below are two pictures. I took both this morning, but one was taken after I woke up, and the other after I fixed myself up. lol. I am definitely not a natural beauty in the morning. Which one is your favorite?

Before

After

 

 

 

 Hahaha man that first one... I should be embarrassed. lol. Oh well. No shame. That's my middle name.  Thank goodness for straighteners and a little foundation! 

I DARE YOU TO POST YOUR BEFORE AND AFTER!!

 

I MISS MY FAMILY

      Getting rid of Facebook has given me a whole lot more time to post on my blog, although now I don't have anywhere to post it so that all the people who read it can see that I've posted something new.  So... hopefully they have my blog site saved or something. 

     Anyway, I seriously miss my family SO MUCH. I really cannot wait to see them.  I definitely appreciate them so much more than I did when I lived with them every day.  Absence makes the heart grow fonder is the SOLID TRUTH. 

     I can't wait to see my MOMMMYYY!!!  I miss her a lot.  Phone calls have been very nice, but I really want to give her a hug. I'll make it a really long one... where it turns super awkward and she'll start to squirm and then start yelling at me to let her go and then she will probably start beating me or something (all because I love her a lot).  hahaha Just kidding. But I can't wait to see her!!!

    I am so excited to see my DADDYYYY!!!!  He is awesome. He is super smart and funny and I love him so much :) I can't wait to see him either!! Although I think that he won't be home when I get home because he will be out at a pastor's fellowship convention thingie. But still. I can't wait to hug him either :)

    Last but certainly not least, I can't wait to see my BABY SISTERRRRR!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!! Seriously though. ANNOY MODE ON! hahaha just kidding. she is super cool. And I love her a lot. She's probably my most favoritest person in the world. Don't tell her that though. She'll take advantage of me. hahaha. 

 But seriously thought. This semester needs to be over RIGHT NOW so I can go be with my family before I have to go work all summer!!  NOWWWWWWWWWWWW....  Aren't we awesome?

 I ruined the picture :( Hahaha  OH WELL!!

So blessed!

I am so blessed!!! I'm sure I will feel even more blessed once summer starts, but yesterday was definitely a good start.

So, I have been dreading going into financial aid to start the registration process for next year because I knew that I probably owed a lot, and it's always a huge burden to carry knowing that I have to find ways to get the amount paid off in order to register for next semester. I was in complete understanding that I would probably have to pay it off during the summer and just leave my schedule for next semester with someone who could register me while I was gone over the summer. But that's not what happened. Funny how things that we have all set and planned are disrupted for God's plans. THANK YOU JESUS.

My mom had told me that she was sending me a package that had some money to pay for my tuition and that it would get here soon. So yesterday I decided to go into financial aid and see what the damage was so that I could know how much I would owe after the money mom was sending me got here. I go in and and ask my friend, who is also my financial aid lady, what I owed and I braced myself for the worst. I was expecting around one amount, but the amount she gave me was almost HALF of that!! I was totally shocked. So I called my dad to find out the amount of the two checks that I was getting so I could see what I would owe after them. Then my dad informed me that there are THREE checks coming. One from them, one from the Missions/scholarship fund at my church, and then my tax return. That was another surprise. I was only expecting two. I also was thinking that the checks would all be smallish. NOPE. I was like, going into shock when my dad was telling me the amounts because it was just enough to pay off this semester and to have a little left over to go into next semesters tuition. Thank you SO MUCH Jesus. You are amazing.


This summer I am working at an International camp in North Carolina and I am making about $3000 which is pretty good for a summer job. I was expecting to have to take all of that and put it towards this semester, and then have to find a way to get next semester paid off... BUT NOPE. That $3000 can go towards next semester, and also, I got a Student Government position that is paid (more on that in another post), so that money will go towards the semester, and I am also thinking about going out for track (throwing) which will have a little bit of money involved. God is WORKING, PEOPLE!!! Hallelujah!!


Ok, that's all for now!! Don't forget to thank him for everything!!!

No Class

      Yesterday, I took out all of my pens and pencils from my backpack and then forgot to put them back in for today's classes.  This morning in class, I had to ask to borrow a pen from a girl.  As she reached her hand into her purse and pulled out what she apparently used all the time as a writing utensil, I became dumbfounded. She was handing me a Prismacolour Premier Fine Line marker.  

      Was she being for real??? She expects me to take notes with that???!!!  That is a high class drawing marker!! But.... I didn't have any thing else to write with... Gulp... Here goes nothing....  I take the lid off and press it to the paper to make a note....  I had to practically swallow a scream from the amount of pain that coursed up through my arm as I attempted to abuse the art tool.  

      Nope. I can't do this. I WON'T!!!  So I didn't.  I put the lid back on and set it aside to give back to the girl after class. And I didn't make anymore notes the entire class.  No way Jose.  Those things themselves are WORKS OF ART!!!!!  HOW DARE SHE???!!!!

Some people got no class.....

p.s. I am NOT exaggerating.  Just like you wouldn't kick a volleyball, you don't write with a drawing marker. :) 

 
 

Prayer Box

I've been meaning to make a project of this for a long time, but I really haven't had a lot of time to do it... I still don't.  Maybe while I'm home for 2 weeks I can make one? 

I'm talking about a prayer box.  I really want to make one.  Design it all by myself, and make it look amazing. Then I can put all of my prayers in it and always date them, because when a prayer is answered, I can take it out of the box and see when I prayed for it, and I can put a date of answer.  I might then put it back in the box. I'm not really sure. 

BUT. I still need to think up designs for my box. How big should it be? How small? Should it be super decorative or simple?  Hmmm....  I found this awesome box on Etsy.com and I just want you to drool over it too.

Some girl HANDMADE it. I love roses, I love keys, and I love love love love old looking rustic things like this. Seriously. I'm drooling I promise. 

Anyway, I don't think my box will look THAT amazing, but I want it to look nice.

      I was making my usual "To Do This Week" list and while I was writing it I kinda glanced at my coin purse and decided I would count all my pennies to see if I could make a few bucks.... Nah... like $2.40 tops.  So... I decide to see how many different years I had...  then... I got an idea... maybe on my box I could have all the years I have been alive be represented in pennies??? Ok... maybe kinda lame... I don't know. Maybe I can do something with it.   But it ends up, I have from 1970 all the way to 2011 and I am only missing 2 years.  1988 and 1971.  I'll probably just get rid of those coins whose years I don't need... cash them I mean. Or... I could keep the years that have significance to me.  Like the year that my parents got married... That's sort of important to me... Although... I'm not entirely sure what year that is. I hope it's not 1988 since I'm missing that one... Hahaha.
 
If anyone has any ideas, let me know!! Brainstorm with me!!!  Maybe you can make one too?? 

That's Annoying.

So... We complain about government control, but nobody even noticed what's going on in the social networking world!  I deactivated my Facebook, and then went to go play some of the games on my iPod only to find out that I can't because they are ALL linked to Facebook.  I can't use Pinterest either because it's linked through Facebook. WHY HASN'T ANYONE NOTICED THIS??!!

Whatever. Guess I'll just have to deal.  I would like to stay away from Facebook for as long as I can.  Let's see how well it goes.

I guess now is better than later

         At some point in our lives we must be awakened to what is real.  Guess that's happening right now. I've made stupid mistakes.  I know I'm not the only one, but it seems as if I have the most to learn.  So here I am, waiting to get spat in the face, punched in the stomach, kicked to the ground and whatever else it takes for me to be molded into a better person. I have hurt a lot of people I love because I haven't been able to recognize what my words and actions actually do to them.  I've always prided myself on how witty I am and how fast I can make people laugh, but that's wrong.  Why?  Because I never stopped to see what after effect it had.

        I can sit and make excuses if I wanted to, but that never does anyone any good. I tried to defend myself, but what's the point? I did what I did and someone got hurt.  I am embarrassed.  So embarrassed because I didn't even know.   And I hate so much that I don't even know what she means when she says that I've done this and that.  I don't remember doing any of it. Not once.  I get accused of not being able to listen to what she is saying, but the truth is, I am in shock.  I can't believe she felt like that.  I had not clue. Not one.  But I've been down this road before. With someone else... who told me the same thing.  So I have to believe it.  It's reoccurring, which means I need to change.

       I don't know how I am going to change, or what I am going to change, but I am done being that person.  I don't know how I am suppose to know what to change, but I guess that's where God comes in.  Who am I going to be when the change is complete?  Is it ever complete? Or is it an ongoing process till we come to an end?  

      Whatever it is, I would like to be someone that doesn't hurt everyone that I love.  I want to be someone that people want to be around.  I don't want to have to try to make people like me and want to spend time with me.  I want to be that someone automatically without effort.  

      I am in a huge hole of self hate.  So, when I am done with this phase... I'll move onto the next one. But I don't know what that is, or when it is.  So let me stay here for a while... and don't ask.