I am sorry that I haven't blogged in months. Let me tell you, when college gets hard, it gets HARD. I haven't been able to take a break for quite some time. I seriously feel like I've been jumping from one thing to another and the only time I get some rest is the 5 hours of sleep I get at night, then I'm up and going again. It is incredibly stressful to have all of this stuff to get done and feel like there is no time to get it done in. I've got so much going on that everything I'm involved in, I feel that I am doing them half-hearted or with half the effort I could be. I've got classes with lots of homework, I've got track practice, I've got a campus job, and then I'd like to think that I've got somewhat of a social life.
Because my track meets are almost always over 2 hours away, I usually read on the bus. I just started the book called Weird by Craig Groeschel. Basically, it is about being different than everyone else because of the effort we put into becoming like Jesus and striving for God's will. The first few chapters caught my attention. They were about time.
First, let me tell you, when I read books like this, I highlight and underline the heck out of them. I've only gotten through the first 3 chapters of the book, but almost every page has something underlined or noted. I'll list a few of the things that I underlined. Again these are from Weird by Craig Groeschel.
"Know what's weird? Day by day, nothing seems to change. But pretty soon, everything's different." - Bill Watterson.
"If the devil can't make us really bad, then he'll try to make us really busy."
"It's time to create a margin in which you can not only focus on your true priorities but also simply breathe and begin to enjoy life again."
"When we follow Jesus, we're about our Father's business, not about the world's busyness."
I know that God gave us 24 hour days and everything that He wants us to do can be accomplished in that amount of time. It just that most of the time, we prioritize things that the world tells us is important over what God tells us is important. Having no time to spend time with Him in His Word is no excuse. So basically.... My first paragraph is irrelevant. Haha. I am terrible about prioritizing my time. I know that, my mother knows that, a lot of people know that. It's definitely something that I need to work on. God made me for something and I'm pretty sure it wasn't for this daily struggle of juggling homework, practicing, and all the other stuff I'm involved in. He asks us to lay our burdens on Him. And I believe that if we put Him first, everything else will fall into place.
Anyway, there are some things that I want to do with my blog in the upcoming weeks and I will post about it in a day or so.
The worst part about all of this is having the feeling that all of it is for nothing. Maybe I don't know where I am going or if I am going in the right direction. I've been doing a lot of thinking (when I can seem to find the time) and I've been feeling that I've been thinking in the wrong direction as to what I am going to do with my life.