Friday, December 10, 2010

Final Week!!!

So.... I have approximately 6 days before I get to go home.  FINALLY. 

There is no exam for Comp I:  YAYYYYYY
There is an exam for Life of Christ:  Pffsshhh. Please. I'm a pastor's kid. Can you say "easy breezy"???
There is no exam for College Experience because my last class was like last monday:  WOOOTTT
There is an exam for Intro to Psych:  YIKES.  (this, I am nervous for)
There is an exam for College Math:  Yup. I am going to fail. No sweat. lols.

Well, the upside, I GET TO GO HOME IN 6 DAYYSSSS!!!!

I should make a list of who I am suppose to hang out with.  But I am hoping people will contact ME too.  It would be kinda lame to be inviting everyone to hang out with me and not get invited myself... ouch. lol
PLUS, I have not a car anymore since mine decided not to work.  So, basically, I am going to be like:

Hey girl! wanna hang out??
Sure! what do you wanna do?
Oh, idk. the mall? a movie? maybe dinner?
That sounds awesome!
Sweet :) your driving! Bye!

........... I feel as if that won't go over very well. But hopefully people will miss me enough that they are readily willing to drive their cars for me. lol

Oh!  And I also can't wait to get home because I can finally upload all the drawings that I have done! I hope I get some comments up in that blog! lol. It's feelin a little naked ;)

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Letter Game!!

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own blog, erase my answers, and enter yours!! Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real. . .nothing made up!

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1. What is your name: Kelli

2. A four Letter Word: Kite

3. A boy's Name: Kyle

4. A girl's Name: Kalyn

5. An occupation: Kindergarten teacher

6. A color: Kelp green

7. Something you wear: Kilt

8. A food: Kabobs

9. Something found in the bathroom: Kotex tampons

10. A place: Kohls!!

11. A reason for being late: Kind old lady needed help across the street :D

12. Something you shout: KOWABUNGAAAAAA

13. A movie title: Knowing

14. Something you drink: Kool-aid

15. A musical group: KISS

16. An animal: Kangaroo

17. A street name: Keller St.

18. A type of car: Kia

19. Something scary: King Cobra snake

20. Ice cream flavor: Kiwi flavored!!!

Wow... That was slightly difficult. YOUR TURN KIDS!!! hahaha get it??? "K"ids??? lols

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


I finally got my schedule for next semester!! But, unfortunately, because of some other stuff going on at the side, I couldn't register till today actually.  And because of that, I didn't get my painting class so... I kinda feel like so:

But, I will be ok.  No worries. lol. Well, that's all for now!! :)

Monday, December 6, 2010

I miss you

It's unbelievable how much you can miss a person...  When they are in your life long enough, they become integrated and have meaning in it. They develop a special nook, or spot, right in your heart.  And then, for one reason or another, something happens that takes them away from you, or you from them, it begins.  The ache builds up.  It is like a deep throbbing in that one place where you know they should be, but their presence is absent.

Whether it is someone in your family like a sister, or the one person you fell in love with, when they aren't there any longer, it hurts like nothing else.  Maybe hurt is the wrong word. Hurt is at the surface.  You can feel it, describe it.  Maybe what I am feeling is much deeper.  More like a slow steady flow of loss. 

I don't know how to tell you in the right words, how exactly it feels.  When I see the pictures... of times that can no longer be, I will admit, tears rush to my eyes faster than they have ever before.  I can remember us talking about everything.  Actually spending time together.  Laughing, sometimes even crying. Together.  Now, everything has changed.  I have. You have.  The world has. 

Even right now. At this very moment, I am struggling not to let my eyes fill up.  I keep choking them back. Why? Because I am too strong to cry.  You won't know if I did, and if you did know, what would you do?  Would it change anything?  I doubt it.  Only God can change anyone.  Nothing I do will change you.  Even though I want so desperately for it to be so. 

Because I would make you better than what you were before.  When you were still you, you were so awesome.  You made people laugh and smile.  You made me laugh so hard I cried. Millions of times.  My lips are shuddering, half holding back a smile, half trying not to cry.  I KNOW that God has something big planned for you.  And I pray. So. Hard. That you realize this sooner than later.  Before it gets too hard to turn back. 

Realize that I love you.  That I am here for you when no one else is.  That I NEED YOU.  Even though you think I don't.  Maybe you really do think I hate you.  That you are stupid.  It couldn't be further from the truth.  I want nothing more than to wrap you in my arms and tell you that you are great and that YOU have your own personal spot in my heart.  Not anyone else. 

I want to share everything with you.  But  I know that can't be.  You aren't ready.  I'm not either.  Maybe this will never get better.  If this is so, I pray that the empty chamber in my heart, that you once laid so comfortably, might someday close up and once and for all stop the unwelcome throbbing.

But for right now, it's ok.  Because it just reminds me of you.  Of the past.  Of all the beauty and indescribable joy that past between us.  No, it isn't easy to sleep at night.  Not when I feel like this.  When I feel like I am missing a part of me.  I can never go to sleep at night and rest peacefully when I have such an incredible feeling of loss that over takes me everytime I close my eyes.  But I do my best to turn the sorrowful tears into reminiscent tears of the love that we were once, able to show, to share.

I will be fine.  I always am.  But I want most is that YOU be ok. To be able to get past everything.

I love you both. <3

How do you think of God?

When you think of God, what kinds of things come to mind?  Words like omnipotent, holy, merciful, etc are probably the more common ones.  In one of my classes today, our professor had us close our eyes.  She told us to think of one song, that if we could only listen to this one song and nothing else, what would it be and why?  Is it the rhythm of the song? The words of it?  So I thought of a song.  I posted about it a while back.  It is "I look to you" by Whitney Houston.  I just LOVEEE the words and the music and I love her voice. I could listen to it for days. I actually have before too.  Just that song.

And then the professor had us close our eyes and think of God. Think about who He is.  What do we invision Him looking like?  How does He smell? Does He have a smell?  What kind of images do we get from Him when we try to imagine His being.

Well, my answer to those questions were that I don't think that I can put God into an actual image of a person (as some people said. ex: apparently there is like a hippo/leopard thing with wings on South Park that is suppose to be God?)  I think of God, not as a deity in someones body, but more of Him being the body.  Or, like, a presence.  Something you can't see, but you can feel the wieght of Him.  And when I think of what he would smell like, I think of flowers.  Of nature.  Of just purity, like when you get a breeze that smells of spring.

So my question of the day is,  When you think of God, if you could imagine him, what would He look like?  What would He smell like?

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Why can't we be more like the Innkeeper?

"And she brought forth her firstborn Son, and wrapped Him in swaddling cloths, and laid Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn." ~ Luke 2:7

You know, it is barely half a verse, and yet it may be the most memorable part of the Christmas story, "and laid Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn."  It also has probably one of the worst misinterpretations of a character in any story.  

When we read the story of Jesus' birth in Church, or on Christmas morning, this anonymous innkeeper has a label of being completely heartless and mean planted on his forehead.  I mean, who else would leave such a holy family out in the cold???  We read that there was no room for Mary and Joseph in the Inn, but if we think about it, is a crowded inn really any place for a woman about to give birth to a baby?  And it certainly wouldn't be right for the innkeeper to throw someone else out to accommodate for the less fortunate family.

Another thing, when we think of where the innkeeper finally found a place to stay, we think that it was out in some stable where a bunch of nasty animal stalls and whatnot were located.  But GUESS WHAT????  This was probably not true at all.  It is just another misconception.  The word "inn" is actually translated into Greek as "καταλυμα (kataluma)" which actually means "upper room" or as we would know, "guest room".  As common sense would tell us, this place would be where the guests all stayed.  This leaves us to assume that instead of getting stuck in a barn out in the cold, Mary and Joseph actually just spent the night in the "lower room".  Now you are wondering, well.... "Where does the animals and the manger come in?"  Well, chill! I'm about to tell you!  Back in that day and age, it was quite common for the family animals to be brought into the lower room for the night, hence, a manger coming in handy.  This would be ok, since the guests all stayed upstairs.  

So... just sayin', maybe next time we read the Christmas story, instead of writing the innkeeper off as inconsiderate, we should commend him for using his resources to help the needy family in such a difficult and awkward situation. 

Ok, my main point is, why do we so often think that things must be perfect to serve people or to provide for them places to stay?  Like, taking care of the homeless, or someone who just needs a place to crash? (Holy or not)  I mean, What Would Jesus Do??  Do you really think that if your house was Jesus' house, that if someone had no where to go for Christmas, that He would worry about how messy the bathroom was, or that the guest bedroom didn't have a set of drawers in it, or whatever other excuses we might make?  Heck to the no.  He would welcome them in with open arms because it would be better than what they would have had otherwise.  Jesus was NOT picky about where He was born.  So why do we think that those who are in need care about stupid things like that?  If we could make their lives just a little bit easier by providing simple things like a place to stay for awhile during the Holidays, imagine how much better you are making their lives.  What if they had no where else to go, and YOU were the one who stepped up and took them in.  You just saved them from being alone on the one holiday when NO ONE should be alone.  Christmas is the celebration of the birth of OUR SAVIOUR!! How do you think He would feel if He knew that we neglected to take care of one of His children because we thought our guest room wasn't good enough or our house was too messy or our food not good enough?  Not a very good birthday present for Him, I'd say....  

Well, that's about all I have to say. I hope whoever reads this takes it to heart because there are way too many people out there who need us.  Who are we to ignore their cries?

This is where I got some of my information! Read it, it has some interesting stuff! :)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Finally Out

So... last night was truly awesome, and I have many of my friends to thank for it, but the biggest one goes to Shelbs for inviting me to the bonfire!!! :)

Is it a little sad that the first semester of college is almost over and I have only stayed out past 1 only once?  I think so.  I love staying up late, but I never got the opportunity to actually go out.  I was stuck in my room or on campus time after time.   It felt so good to be able to come back at 3 in the morning and know that I had a good time and that I actually left campus behind. 

I hung out with some cool people, too!  I really hope I get to go again.  There were several people there that I think it would be awesome to become close too... but as we all know, Kelli has very bad luck with that stuff... :/

Well, today I get to go out again, but this time it is for a class.  We are going to a care center to do some service work.  We need to have about 3 hours for my Life of Christ class.  A lot of the girls who were at the bonfire last night will be there.  They are all pretty awesome :)  So I am looking forward to it!!!  Too bad I left my camera back at my room.....  Ain't no way I'm walkin all the way back there!!!

NEXT POST:  EXERCISE!!! lol. No, seriously it will be.