Monday, November 5, 2012

Beautiful People

       I went to Florida State Youth Convention over the weekend.  I think it was just what I needed after all the thinking that I have been doing.  The services were really good, mostly because of the worship. The sermons weren't very deep, but they had a really good message in them.  Unplug was the theme of the convention, which was basically about taking the time to unplug from everything around us like Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, our phones, our computers and just sit in the presence of God and listen.  Give our full attention to what God has to say.  It reminded me of last years conference in Ohio.  The theme was Pause and was about pressing pause on the things around us so that we could actually hear what God had to say.  Anyway, I was at my Warner table in the convention center and all weekend I met some cool people including Katie who is an admissions counselor from Anderson University.  Her booth was right next to mine.  We went to Popeye's together and had some good conversation. By far one of the coolest people I met all weekend was a guy named Bill, but he goes by Gator.  He is a crazy Gator's fan and is funny as all get out.  When he wore his camouflage ball cap, he looked like Larry the Cable guy.  He is an ex-Marine and definitely looked like it.  I took this picture with him.
Me N' Gator

Gator is one of those people that reminds me about how awesome people can be.  God has created the entire human race, all people that have been, are, and will be, and none of them are the same.  We all have gone through different situations and have changed from the experiences we have.  People have such deep personalities and I believe that God created us this way so that we would intentionally have to take the time to get to know one another.  Christianity is a relationship. It's a relationship with Jesus, as well as with the people of the world.  We weren't created this way to be alone… we were created to be with people.  God wants to be known by us, we want to be known by others, so why wouldn't others want to be known as well??? 

       On Saturday evening, I needed to head to my booth so I could set up a little bit before the main evening service began so I was walking down the long hall of the convention center to get to my table at the other end.  The convention center hallways were completely filled with hundreds of kids bouncing off the walls from lack of sleep or too much sugar... I don't even know... There were also the older teenagers in little tight groups talking to each other along the walls or in the sitting areas, but the ones that I paid attention to were the group of girls (freshman I think) that were walking a little bit behind me, probably to get in line by the doors for when they opened.   Anyway, what I heard was incredibly disturbing and really was a slap in the face telling me to wake up to what was around me.  They were talking about school and then one girl said something like "Well, I know I am ugly so it doesn't matter."  I literally stopped in my tracks and turned around and they all almost tripped on me because I stopped so fast.  I looked at the girl who had said it and my jaw dropped to the floor.  She was so pretty!!  Beautiful blond hair to her shoulders, bright blue eyes, long lashes, gorgeous mouth and smile.  I was like, "Please tell me you are kidding."  And she kinda looked at me and said "No I'm not kidding.  I'm ugly and I don't like myself."  I said, "You definitely are not ugly and what do you not like?"  She then gestured toward her stomach.  I said, "Girl, you can work on that! It's not permanent!"  She said, "Yeah I'm on a diet. It's the one with the shakes."  I then told her that it might work while she was on it, but as soon as she started eating food again, she would gain the weight right back, so instead of doing the shakes, she should try something like Weight Watchers where you don't not eat certain foods, you just eat a lot less.  That's where you drop the weight.  Another girl popped up and said, "Yeah I know I'm not really pretty either, but I know this is how God made me so yeah."  DANG!!  These girls needed some serious ministry.  It made me so sad to think that these two beautiful girls thought they were ugly just because they had a little extra weight.  

       This was another God moment for me.  (I've been having a lot of them....) I feel like God was grabbing me and shaking me and saying, "See all these people??  There is more going on in the world besides you and your problems.  Be aware of them.  Be someone who deals with them."  I've always loved people. I love watching people, I love talking to people, and I love learning about all the different kinds of people and cultures in the world.  We really are God's greatest and most intricate creation.  We were, after all, the peak of creation.  Don't ever look down on someone because they aren't your idea of pretty, or pleasant, or pleasing.  God created them.  He made them unique.  He knew them in their mother's womb, just as He did you.  Loving your neighbor as yourself really is incredibly important in the role of a Christian.  If you really are gonna strive to be as Jesus, you are gonna have to eat with the tax collectors, the weak, the poor, and the dirty.  It's a seems like a tough job, but if we love Christ as we should, we will be able to do it, and maybe even enjoy it.  So I've decided that instead of being just a people watcher, I'm gonna be a people lover.   Maybe you should too.

Sunday, November 4, 2012

A Love Letter....

"Why are you still looking for love?  Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough?"

       Why am I still searching?  Why can't I see and know that You, God, are all I need and will ever need? You have given me everything I need and more.  You've given Your Son, Your creation, and Your time and love to me, but I keep choosing worldy, shallow love over all of Your majestic glory!  Who do I think I am?  I cry over rejection by someone that doesn't give two cents about me and I cry to You to help him see me…  And now I realized that I've been doing this to You.  You are worth more than all the guys in the world.  You are priceless and I've treated You as if You are worth two cents.

       I feel so cheap being ignored when all I want is to be noticed by the one that I care about.  And I feel even worse when he tells me he cares and even loves me, but then acts as if I don't exist.  What a parallel that my love life is to the relationship I have, or rather don't have, with You.  In conversation, I boldly claim to be a Christian and say that I love You, but then I ignore you and don't talk to You.  When I have free time I pick other things like sleep, music, or whatever comes up, over spending time with You, just as he did….  I would be so shocked…  How can he tell me that he really likes me and even loves me, but then doesn't even put aside 10 minutes to talk to me?  When he needed me, he would text me and tell me to come over, so I did because I cared, maybe even loved him.  I wanted to give him everything.  All of me.  I wanted him to know me.  But after I would go over for a little while, he would leave and not talk to me as if none of what happened, happened.  As if we weren't closer… as if he wasn't affected by any of it.  How can anyone do that??  Oh wait…. I did that.  I'm doing that.  To You, God. I've used you as he used me.  I call out to You when I need You or need something from You, and because You love me, You come and reach out, You show me mercy, but then after, I go on with my life and ignore you after my problem is fixed.  

       I've been reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan.  This book is life changing… if I let it. I've realized that I've gotten really good at being indifferent.  But I can feel my heart getting penetrated.  It took a heart break for God to get into the crack to split my life wide open.  In the book, there is a story about Grandma Clara and how she "acted toward God the way we act toward people we're madly in love with."  My struggle is being loved.  All my life I've searched and fallen over and over again because I put my trust and heart into someone I thought loved me the way I needed and now all I see is that God, Creator of the universe, is the only one capable of completely embracing my heart, every broken piece, every crack, with the perfect love that will never fail me. 

There is no earthly lover that can do what God can.  No one that can please me and fulfill me the way He can.  I want to fall in love with God because He is the only one that will not only satisfy my soul, but He will satisfy my heart.  

God, I want to crave Your presence.  I want you to engulf me in flames of a love so passionate that I will want to do anything for You.  I Am, give me the desire to pursue You, just as You have pursued me.  You are beautiful and worth everything that I have, and everything that I am and will ever be.

Monday, October 15, 2012

Throwing Video

     If you have been keeping up with me, you know that I have been super busy with school, Student Government, and Track&Field.  Well, someone videoed some parts of our practice, so if you wanna watch: here it is!  But.... remember, I've never done this before....  But I'm trying!!!  There's been a couple practices between the filming of the video and now, so I've gotten a little better.  Just a little. Here's the vid:

Sunday, September 30, 2012

It's gonna be a doozy...

      I knew before this year started that it was gonna be a tough one, but now that I have been at school for 5 weeks, I shall edit my original assumption and call it a 'doozy' instead... seems more accurate.  My classes are taking a lot of time, SGA is a ton of work, and I am also on the Track & Field team which takes a good chunk of my time as well....  As most people, who know me well, know.... I SUCK at time management... and I am a master at procrastination...  'Tis not a good thing to be a master in... especially with all the junk I need to do.  I wish it was like...  Tae Kwon Do or something.... oh sorry... distraction.  ANYWAY.

     I have a planner, and I write in it... the thing is that sometimes I just don't look at it after I write in it.  This is very bad.  I have so much homework that it is overwhelming and I am constantly in a fight with myself on whether or not I should do it...  I usually pick the smart option, but sometimes....  I don't.  It also doesn't help that I started reading a book series the past 2 weeks because when I get involved in a book, it becomes my priority.  I haven't read any books in a really long time so I was super into getting it read and finished (which I did). 

So... pretty much I need to grow some discipline ASAP. I need to concentrate on the things I NEED to concentrate on instead of what I WANT to concentrate on.  DOES ANYONE KNOW HOW HARD THAT IS??!!

Anyway... speaking of discipline, I'm gonna go do homework now. :D

Friday, June 22, 2012

Is it okay if I say that I'm sick of being alone?  Can I say it without getting the same old lecture "You're never alone"....?   Because with or without the lecture, I still feel alone and I am sick of it.  I'm sick of flying solo.  I'm sick of having to tell myself that I'm beautiful.  I want to hear it from his lips.  I want to feel it through his love.  Whoever he is... I feel as low as dirt because all I want is that .... and its not mine.

Something that makes that feeling even worse is seeing someone every day that you have feelings for, but you know they don't feel the same... and yet the feelings don't stop.  Shouldn't they??  Hearts are really stupid.  Listen, chick, he doesn't like you.  So stop liking him.  Nope. Doesn't work that way.  First you have to suffer.  Suffer every time you see him laugh and smile and do all those ridiculously cute things... Suffer because when he does those things, he is doing them with other people and you're just watching.  He pretty much doesn't even know you exist.  Oh sure, keep telling yourself that if he knew you, he would like you.  I'm pretty sure that's not the case. Nor will it ever be the case. 

I am stuck being the girl that likes the guy who doesn't like her back and who all the guys that she doesn't like nor would ever like, like her.

Ok... I'm done moping.  No I'm not... ughhh

Friday, April 20, 2012

My roommate and friend are getting married!!

I will admit that I was definitely one of the critical ones.  I did, in fact, think right after I said, "Oh my gosh!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!", that it might be a bit soon.  After all, they had only been dating like... what? 3 or 4 months? 

Well, I just found their wedding blog and I read it and oh my goodness.  I am so happy for them.  They wrote a condensed version of the events that happened.  I have a ridiculously romantic heart and I LOVE their little story.  


 I want some of that water, Mom.


Thursday, April 19, 2012

Natural Beauty? I don't think so.

      Despite what some people say, I think it is perfectly ok to want to look good and get yourself composed and cleaned up. Below are two pictures. I took both this morning, but one was taken after I woke up, and the other after I fixed myself up. lol. I am definitely not a natural beauty in the morning. Which one is your favorite?

 Hahaha man that first one... I should be embarrassed. lol. Oh well. No shame. That's my middle name.  Thank goodness for straighteners and a little foundation! 



Wednesday, April 18, 2012


      Getting rid of Facebook has given me a whole lot more time to post on my blog, although now I don't have anywhere to post it so that all the people who read it can see that I've posted something new.  So... hopefully they have my blog site saved or something. 

     Anyway, I seriously miss my family SO MUCH. I really cannot wait to see them.  I definitely appreciate them so much more than I did when I lived with them every day.  Absence makes the heart grow fonder is the SOLID TRUTH. 

     I can't wait to see my MOMMMYYY!!!  I miss her a lot.  Phone calls have been very nice, but I really want to give her a hug. I'll make it a really long one... where it turns super awkward and she'll start to squirm and then start yelling at me to let her go and then she will probably start beating me or something (all because I love her a lot).  hahaha Just kidding. But I can't wait to see her!!!

    I am so excited to see my DADDYYYY!!!!  He is awesome. He is super smart and funny and I love him so much :) I can't wait to see him either!! Although I think that he won't be home when I get home because he will be out at a pastor's fellowship convention thingie. But still. I can't wait to hug him either :)

    Last but certainly not least, I can't wait to see my BABY SISTERRRRR!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!! Seriously though. ANNOY MODE ON! hahaha just kidding. she is super cool. And I love her a lot. She's probably my most favoritest person in the world. Don't tell her that though. She'll take advantage of me. hahaha. 

 But seriously thought. This semester needs to be over RIGHT NOW so I can go be with my family before I have to go work all summer!!  NOWWWWWWWWWWWW....  Aren't we awesome?

 I ruined the picture :( Hahaha  OH WELL!!

So blessed!

I am so blessed!!! I'm sure I will feel even more blessed once summer starts, but yesterday was definitely a good start.

So, I have been dreading going into financial aid to start the registration process for next year because I knew that I probably owed a lot, and it's always a huge burden to carry knowing that I have to find ways to get the amount paid off in order to register for next semester. I was in complete understanding that I would probably have to pay it off during the summer and just leave my schedule for next semester with someone who could register me while I was gone over the summer. But that's not what happened. Funny how things that we have all set and planned are disrupted for God's plans. THANK YOU JESUS.

My mom had told me that she was sending me a package that had some money to pay for my tuition and that it would get here soon. So yesterday I decided to go into financial aid and see what the damage was so that I could know how much I would owe after the money mom was sending me got here. I go in and and ask my friend, who is also my financial aid lady, what I owed and I braced myself for the worst. I was expecting around one amount, but the amount she gave me was almost HALF of that!! I was totally shocked. So I called my dad to find out the amount of the two checks that I was getting so I could see what I would owe after them. Then my dad informed me that there are THREE checks coming. One from them, one from the Missions/scholarship fund at my church, and then my tax return. That was another surprise. I was only expecting two. I also was thinking that the checks would all be smallish. NOPE. I was like, going into shock when my dad was telling me the amounts because it was just enough to pay off this semester and to have a little left over to go into next semesters tuition. Thank you SO MUCH Jesus. You are amazing.

This summer I am working at an International camp in North Carolina and I am making about $3000 which is pretty good for a summer job. I was expecting to have to take all of that and put it towards this semester, and then have to find a way to get next semester paid off... BUT NOPE. That $3000 can go towards next semester, and also, I got a Student Government position that is paid (more on that in another post), so that money will go towards the semester, and I am also thinking about going out for track (throwing) which will have a little bit of money involved. God is WORKING, PEOPLE!!! Hallelujah!!

Ok, that's all for now!! Don't forget to thank him for everything!!!

No Class

      Yesterday, I took out all of my pens and pencils from my backpack and then forgot to put them back in for today's classes.  This morning in class, I had to ask to borrow a pen from a girl.  As she reached her hand into her purse and pulled out what she apparently used all the time as a writing utensil, I became dumbfounded. She was handing me a Prismacolour Premier Fine Line marker.  

      Was she being for real??? She expects me to take notes with that???!!!  That is a high class drawing marker!! But.... I didn't have any thing else to write with... Gulp... Here goes nothing....  I take the lid off and press it to the paper to make a note....  I had to practically swallow a scream from the amount of pain that coursed up through my arm as I attempted to abuse the art tool.  

      Nope. I can't do this. I WON'T!!!  So I didn't.  I put the lid back on and set it aside to give back to the girl after class. And I didn't make anymore notes the entire class.  No way Jose.  Those things themselves are WORKS OF ART!!!!!  HOW DARE SHE???!!!!

Some people got no class.....

p.s. I am NOT exaggerating.  Just like you wouldn't kick a volleyball, you don't write with a drawing marker. :) 

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Prayer Box

I've been meaning to make a project of this for a long time, but I really haven't had a lot of time to do it... I still don't.  Maybe while I'm home for 2 weeks I can make one? 

I'm talking about a prayer box.  I really want to make one.  Design it all by myself, and make it look amazing. Then I can put all of my prayers in it and always date them, because when a prayer is answered, I can take it out of the box and see when I prayed for it, and I can put a date of answer.  I might then put it back in the box. I'm not really sure. 

BUT. I still need to think up designs for my box. How big should it be? How small? Should it be super decorative or simple?  Hmmm....  I found this awesome box on and I just want you to drool over it too.

Some girl HANDMADE it. I love roses, I love keys, and I love love love love old looking rustic things like this. Seriously. I'm drooling I promise. 

Anyway, I don't think my box will look THAT amazing, but I want it to look nice.

      I was making my usual "To Do This Week" list and while I was writing it I kinda glanced at my coin purse and decided I would count all my pennies to see if I could make a few bucks.... Nah... like $2.40 tops.  So... I decide to see how many different years I had...  then... I got an idea... maybe on my box I could have all the years I have been alive be represented in pennies??? Ok... maybe kinda lame... I don't know. Maybe I can do something with it.   But it ends up, I have from 1970 all the way to 2011 and I am only missing 2 years.  1988 and 1971.  I'll probably just get rid of those coins whose years I don't need... cash them I mean. Or... I could keep the years that have significance to me.  Like the year that my parents got married... That's sort of important to me... Although... I'm not entirely sure what year that is. I hope it's not 1988 since I'm missing that one... Hahaha.
If anyone has any ideas, let me know!! Brainstorm with me!!!  Maybe you can make one too?? 

That's Annoying.

So... We complain about government control, but nobody even noticed what's going on in the social networking world!  I deactivated my Facebook, and then went to go play some of the games on my iPod only to find out that I can't because they are ALL linked to Facebook.  I can't use Pinterest either because it's linked through Facebook. WHY HASN'T ANYONE NOTICED THIS??!!

Whatever. Guess I'll just have to deal.  I would like to stay away from Facebook for as long as I can.  Let's see how well it goes.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

I guess now is better than later

         At some point in our lives we must be awakened to what is real.  Guess that's happening right now. I've made stupid mistakes.  I know I'm not the only one, but it seems as if I have the most to learn.  So here I am, waiting to get spat in the face, punched in the stomach, kicked to the ground and whatever else it takes for me to be molded into a better person. I have hurt a lot of people I love because I haven't been able to recognize what my words and actions actually do to them.  I've always prided myself on how witty I am and how fast I can make people laugh, but that's wrong.  Why?  Because I never stopped to see what after effect it had.
        I can sit and make excuses if I wanted to, but that never does anyone any good. I tried to defend myself, but what's the point? I did what I did and someone got hurt.  I am embarrassed.  So embarrassed because I didn't even know.   And I hate so much that I don't even know what she means when she says that I've done this and that.  I don't remember doing any of it. Not once.  I get accused of not being able to listen to what she is saying, but the truth is, I am in shock.  I can't believe she felt like that.  I had not clue. Not one.  But I've been down this road before. With someone else... who told me the same thing.  So I have to believe it.  It's reoccurring, which means I need to change.

       I don't know how I am going to change, or what I am going to change, but I am done being that person.  I don't know how I am suppose to know what to change, but I guess that's where God comes in.  Who am I going to be when the change is complete?  Is it ever complete? Or is it an ongoing process till we come to an end?  

      Whatever it is, I would like to be someone that doesn't hurt everyone that I love.  I want to be someone that people want to be around.  I don't want to have to try to make people like me and want to spend time with me.  I want to be that someone automatically without effort.  

      I am in a huge hole of self hate.  So, when I am done with this phase... I'll move onto the next one. But I don't know what that is, or when it is.  So let me stay here for a while... and don't ask.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012


I really wish we had an official rugby team at Warner... I really want to play legit rugby.  I miss it.  My coach finally got me these pics from our photo shoot last semester of our rugby team.  She called me "ridiculously photogenic". Well thanks!

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Flea Markets are BOSS

Over this spring break, (last week) Karis and I went to the flea market and dude, I got some nifty treasures. Check em OUTTTTTT:

 I collect little figurines like these. I have a whole box full of them at home.  I almost peed my pants in excitement when I saw these.  They were in a little bin and an old lady came over to me and told me that whatever was in the bin was a quarter each.  OH YEAAAHH.

 So I proceeded to dig through the box picking out all the ones I could find that I wanted.  It was AWESOME.
This set of silverware, I almost walked past, but they were too awesome looking.  I told Karis that if they were anymore than $5 I wouldn't buy them.  I then found the lady whose table we were at, and... she said she'd sell for $4.  Ok lady. Ya got me. SOLD!  Hahah.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Battlestar Galactica

Karis and I finished Battlestar two days ago.  It was so good!!!  I just wanna go draw all my favorite characters from it!  I also cried... not just at the end either. I cried multiple times throughout the entire show.  Stupid emotions.  But I don't mind. I just feel that much more attached the the characters.  I wanna be one of those fans that have a bajillion pics and quotes on their walls from the movie because its AWESOME.

What's a show on t.v. that has made you cry??

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

My friends have great taste

Now, by the title, not only do I mean that they have great taste in picking me as their friend.... ;-) but I also mean that they have great taste in television.  Karis especially has amazing taste in television.  In the last couple weeks we have been watching a bunch of shows that she really likes and.... I LIKE THEM TOO!!!!  

Here are the two that we've watched and their descriptions:


 ""The show revolves around a corporation running numerous underground establishments (known as "Dollhouses") across the globe which program individuals referred to as Actives (or Dolls) with temporary personalities and skills. Wealthy clients hire Actives from Dollhouses at great expense for various purposes. The series primarily follows the Active known as Echo, played by Eliza Dushku, on her journey towards self-awareness.""   (from Wikipedia)

*** Ok so...  this show was so good, when it ended, I was literally sobbing. No, I am not exaggerating. Not at all.


 ""The series is set in the year 2517, after the arrival of humans in a new system, and follows the adventures of the renegade crew of Serenity, a "Firefly-class" spaceship. The ensemble cast portrays the nine characters who live on Serenity. Whedon pitched the show as "nine people looking into the blackness of space and seeing nine different things". The show explores the lives of some people who fought on the losing side of a civil war and others who now make a living on the outskirts of society, as part of the pioneer culture that exists on the fringes of their star system. In addition, it is a future where the only two surviving superpowers, the United States and China, fused to form the central federal government, called the Alliance, resulting in the fusion of the two cultures.""

*** This show was really good too. It was quirky and it was heavy and light at times.  It's a shame it ended so soon.  

Currently, Karis and I are watching Battlestar Galatica.  She's already seen the entire series and I think it's one of her favorites.   

Whelp.... That's all :)  


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

The Start of 40 Days of Epic Awesomeness!!!!!!

     Tomorrow, my friends and I are going to start a diet/exercise regimen for 40 days to coincide with Chris Seay's book, A Place at the Table.  It's about solidarity with the poor from other countries.  We eat what they eat every day for 40 days which is rice, chicken, some fruit and only drink water.  
Me, Salina, and Lexi
     This is our "Before" pic.  We individually took "before" pics of ourselves so after our 40 days of hardcore working out, we will take them again, and another one like above, and be able to see a difference. I hope. And just in case we can't see it, we took our measurements. Gotta cover all the bases!!  

     I am definitely excited about it.  I just hope I stay disciplined and keep at it.  I want to go above and beyond and seriously get really well.  Wish me well!!

Monday, February 20, 2012

I hate regret

Right now, I am working on two little portraits for a woman who works in the office that I am a student worker in.  Her husband's birthday is on the 23rd and I am gonna try my best to get them into her by tomorrow afternoon.  It's gonna be tough.  I have the 11x14 done and I like it, but I am still working on the two 5x7s which are a little more difficult because I've never worked that small with a portrait before.  I was just looking at the bigger portrait.. 

Ok, yes... I might have been admiring it, but not in a conceited way.  I was merely thinking about how far I have come along with my art.  I started thinking about the day when I was in about 7th grade and I drew a really good portrait of Johnny Depp.  Well... good for back then.  I remember, I was really shocked that I drew him so well.  

That just started me thinking about all the other things that I had drawn... little books I had started, or phases I went through drawing certain things...  I really really really wish that I had kept them.  I had thrown them away gradually with every occasional room cleaning.  Now looking back, if I were to change one thing about my past, it would be that. I would have collected all of my art work so I could look back, like I wish I could now, and see my artistic progression.

So... can you think of something that, looking back now, you seriously wish you hadn't thrown away?  Let's get some comments on here people!!! I wanna read about you!  It is NOT hard to comment if you don't have an account.  PLEASE :)

Wednesday, February 15, 2012


I know that I had a post awhile ago that said I decided to keep this blog instead of having a tumblr, but my friend, Karis, convinced me to get one and try it again. I had one once, but I wasn't really motivated to figure it out because it was weird.  Anywaaayyyy, now I have one again, and it is so much fun!!!  It isn't super bloggy like blogspot.  It's more of a picture sharing kind of place.  There are some really funny stuff on there!  I have to start getting more involved with the gifs because those are usually the funny things about tumblr.  People will be commenting on something someone said or did, or a movie or whatever, and they will post their reaction to it via a gif.  The gifs are usually from a movie or show and the way they put it, its just so funny because it really clicks. 


Saturday, January 7, 2012

Hate it but I can't help it

My aunt gave my sister and I a pair of tickets to an early viewing of Beauty and the Beast 3D.  So today we are going!!!
Only thing is, I hate, I mean loooaathhe, 3D. It is never like, mind blowing, and I have to wear eye glasses to watch movies, so adding the other stupid 3D glasses over them, is like... heckk no.

But, I never saw Beauty and the Beast in theaters, so I would say that this is gonna be an experience. Especially since the movie, when it first came out, won a bajillion awards for best film art and music, etc. 

So I think I'll make the sacrifice... or just not wear my eye glasses.  I'll sit super close. 

Friday, January 6, 2012

Hey, so... I just hung out with my brothers for the first time.... ever.

A lot of you remember reading my blog post that I wrote this past summer about meeting my biological father.  I'm too lazy to check to see if I mentioned anything about my brothers.  But when I found my biological father almost a year ago to date, I also found out that I had two brothers from my father's first marriage.

Well, two days ago, on Wednesday, I met my two brothers for the first time ever!!!  It was so amazing!!! Taylor is 24, and Nathan is 22.

Nathan, me, and Taylor
I remember getting up early and I cleaned the house and it seemed like every time I looked at the clock, time was just moving slower... so I just put my ipod in and just listened to music and went around just doing things to occupy myself until noon which was when they were suppose to be at my house. I didn't even hear the door bell ring.  I actually saw my dog jumping and running around barking.  My stomach dropped and I ran to the window to check and see if they were here... I looked out the window, and it wasn't a fedex... aaaahhhh I was so nervous. So... I went and opened the door and saw them.  I instantly started smiling like an idiot. It was so awesome. I let them into the house, and hugged them both. On the outside, I was smiling and being calme, but happy, and then... on the inside, I was screaming and running around in circles, jumping up and down, completely ecstatic.  I took them into the kitchen and started making lunch, but because I was so nervous, I was making a lot of noise, and I couldn't think straight, I was knocking things off the fridge that was hanging on it, etc. I probably looked like an idiot. But, I blame it on them.  

While I was making lunch, we talked about all kinds of stuff, and then sat down and played the question game. We all sucked at the game. Nobody could really think of questions... I know you are probably thinking of tons of questions you would ask, but my mind was drawing blanks. I couldn't really think of any good questions. 

Anyway, after we ate we sat in the family room and talked and ended up playing Words With Friends on our phones for almost two hours. It was pretty fun... I learned that Taylor has a very small vocabulary considering every word he used was a word he had no idea what it meant, he just got lucky when the game accepted it.  Nathan is hilarious because he just rolls his eyes and pokes back when Taylor says stupid things.

I definitely know we are related because myself, along with many other people have noticed wayyyy too many similarities.  Taylor and I have the same smile, Nathan and I have the same eyes, we alllll bite our finger nails, and we all have pretty good senses of humor. lol. I can't imagine if we had all grown up in the same house. It probably would have been crazy.

Meeting my brothers seriously made my winter break. It was so awesome. I think we are going to hang out one more time before they head back home since they came to Ohio to visit me and other family. I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to meet them and I get the opportunity to get to know them now. Not many people get the chance to catch up with siblings they didn't know they had. Well, I do!!!  Thanks Jesus <3 You the Man...

HERE is the link for my reunion with my father... not really after, but a back story post:

Thursday, January 5, 2012

2012 is gonna be swell

    Well, 2012 is here!!! There has been so many changes and things that have happened in 2011, I think I can honestly say, I have never needed a new year more than right now. I NEED TO START OVERRR!!!!

So here I am, about to make another promise to blog more, which I may or may not actually keep.  I have the urge to make an epic New Year's resolution, that I may or may not keep...  Which makes me think... that I might just wing it. Hail Mary!!!  2012 has a big name... I mean, it has a movie after it!! Basically, I'm obligated to try my bestest to make the year epic.  And... there is a very big possibility that it will be.  "Like what?" - (this is what you just thought in your head.)  I shall tell you!

#1) New semester = new classes= new friends
#2) I made a flyer to advertise to get art commissions= money for school
#3) I got the job that I wanted for summer= money & experience
#4) The job is at a sports summer camp = workin out and losin' weight (before)
#5) No boys= no problems   (but... I'm open to meeting Prince Charming....) XD

As long as I don't screw anything up... (which is inevitable)... then it should be a super good year!! :D